To answer your long awaiting ?'s - Yes, I'm healthy aside for gaining weight when my wife was pregnant with our son 2 years ago and never losing it : ) My parents are rock stars (not literally but they are the greatest). And yes I'm a very happy person.In those first few sentences, I learned that my prayers had come true, as well as the fact that I had a grandson too!
I mailed Christopher an Anniversary card. I can't believe I found one that was appropriate, and it had room to write "Reunion" before "Anniversary". It was so very hard to not get too gushy when writing in the card, but I have been really trying to hold back when writing to Christopher lately. He's been very quiet for a few months now.
I've tried to never tell any of Christopher's story here on my blog. I hopefully will not say too much here now. There has been a big change in his life, which I believe is part of why he is quiet. In December Christopher wrote to tell me that part of why he had been quiet at that point was because he had been going to several doctor appointments and was diagnosed with a pretty serious heart disease. He has since been evaluated at Mayo Clinic, got a very reassuring report that the condition shouldn't get any worse, that it should be well controlled with medication and only minor restrictions in physical activity. His first emails after diagnosis were very down, he couldn't help but wonder if he was going to see his kids grow up and get married, become parents. One of my replies to him told him that he wasn't going anywhere because I had many dreams for our future ~ dreams I had never told him of because I worried I would be imposing myself onto him.
Now, he's quiet again. I hope that once he has had time to adjust to this change in his life, he will be back again as before. I hope I haven't scared him off by wanting more than he is willing to give.
I hope the jars of homemade salsa I canned last summer and mailed to him today, with the Snoopy anniversary card, warms him up to me again!
So much has changed since those first days of reunion two years ago, I feel like a completely different person. Yet. So much has stayed the same. I still sometimes feel like that scared, insecure 15 year old. Afraid of losing her son all over again.