The first thoughts to enter were judgmental ones. Then I remembered.
I went back to those days in mid-January three years ago. I also was hesitant for a while. But not because I didn't want to tell them, not because I was afraid (although I was). I was hesitant to share him. I finally had Christopher in my life, after almost 30 years. It is hard to put in words those feelings that overwhelmed my life so suddenly.
The only thing that comes near to describing it is that it was sacred. I wanted, no ~ I needed ~ to live in the sacredness of us. Just us. For a little while. Not out of avoidance of anything. Simply out of love and amazement and needing to savor it all.
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That which should not have been torn asunder to begin with.
Just thinking about those first days brings the feeling right back to me. I needed those days to revel in the amazing turn my life was taking. To adjust to this new life that included my firstborn son.
I think sacred is just the right word.