I LOVE the movie Burlesque! I was listening to the soundtrack this morning as I was getting ready for work.
As I listened to the song "You Haven't Seen The Last of Me", I immediately thought of a friend from an on-line forum I belong to. She has taken a break from the forum, as the happy-dappy adoption attitudes and the ap's who like to label us as "bitter birthmoms" have taken their toll on her. I then thought of all of us strong women who are surviving adoption loss ~ the moms and the adoptees. For I believe that we ARE strong, even when we are feeling weak. And that is why I am so very thankful for all of the on-line friends I have met in adoption blog-land. When I am feeling weak, feeling brought down to my knees and past the point of breaking, all of them, all of you lift me back up again ~ you are my strength until I can stand up on my own again!
As I listened to the song "You Haven't Seen The Last of Me", I immediately thought of a friend from an on-line forum I belong to. She has taken a break from the forum, as the happy-dappy adoption attitudes and the ap's who like to label us as "bitter birthmoms" have taken their toll on her. I then thought of all of us strong women who are surviving adoption loss ~ the moms and the adoptees. For I believe that we ARE strong, even when we are feeling weak. And that is why I am so very thankful for all of the on-line friends I have met in adoption blog-land. When I am feeling weak, feeling brought down to my knees and past the point of breaking, all of them, all of you lift me back up again ~ you are my strength until I can stand up on my own again!
Feeling broken
Barely holding on
But just there's something so strong
Somewhere inside me.
And I am down, but I'll get up again.
Don't count me out just yet
I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed right past the point of breaking,
But I can take it.
I'll be back -
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me.
You haven't seen the last of me.
They can
Say that
I won't stay around
But I'm gonna stand my ground
You're not gonna stop me.
You don't know me, you don't know who I am.
Don't count me out so fast.
I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed
right past the point of breaking,
But I can take it.
I'll be back -
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me.
There will be no fade-out
This is not the end
I'm down now
But I'll be standing on top again.
Times are hard but
I was built tough.
I'm gonna show you all what I'm made of.
I've been brought down to my knees
I've been pushed
right past the point of breaking,
But I can take it.
I'll be back -
Back on my feet
This is far from over
I am far from over...
You haven't seen the last of me.
No, no,
I'm not going nowhere.
I'm staying right here!
Oh no,
You won't see me beg
I'm not taking my bow
Can't stop me
It's not the end
You haven't seen the last of me
Oh no
You haven't seen the last of me
You haven't seen the last of me
(Doll ~ I'm so thankful for FaceBook ~ I wasn't ready to see the last of you!)
Susie
"I am so very thankful for all of the on-line friends I have met in adoption blog-land" I couldn't agree with you more. I am so glad the women (you included) I have met on line. It has made me get through this last year and a half.
ReplyDeleteI don't know how to ask for help. Anytime I've asked, it's been used as an opportunity for someone else to take advantage of my vulnerability and exploit my weakness for their own benefit. Most poignantly, my crisis pregnancy in 1991 - 92. But sadly, while that is the most devastating example I can give, it is not the only one.
ReplyDeleteAnd so a lifetime of being kicked while down has taught me that secluding myself is the only safety...even when the solitude isolates me from the gems who can (and do) offer the support I need to pull myself up.
It was never my intention to cause a scene or to create a dramatic exit but to respectfully move aside. As it happened, I was met with a surprising warmth, understanding, and compassion. And now I find myself overwhelmed with gratitude and a feeling of having taken you, and all the other amazing women on that forum for granted.
I am ashamed I didn't have faith in you, in them.
I am lost for words...
I am lost...
my deepest respect, and love to you and each one of those amazing women.
-Doll
I love the movie Burlesque too!
ReplyDeleteI have pretty much left every adoption related forum for either being an angry adoptee or a bitter birthmom. Neither of which I am. Oh well :/
Doll ~ You are also an amazing woman! I have learned from you, you have shown many your warmth, understanding, and compassion also. (Along with a bit of much needed sass!!) You are a bright light to many, even if you don't realize it. I hope that one day soon you find faith not only in others, but also in yourself!
ReplyDeletePlease don't feel any shame on my part. I for one am very glad that you came into my life, being one of the many wonderful women helping me thru this journey of finding myself.