2009 started with a huge bang ~ it was January 16th that I opened my hotmail account to find the emails from a search angel and one from Christopher. I will never forget the moment I found out my son was still alive, as well as healthy and happy. We began a wonderful cyber reunion, and for the first time since 1979 I was able to celebrate, instead of mourn his birthday. Every holiday was wonderful also, without the worries about if/what Christopher was doing. As the year came to a close, although still very happy with our reunion, I really didn't think I would get a chance to meet him in person for a long time, if ever.
2010 became surprisingly harder as far as reunion emotions. This year as holidays and Christopher's birthday came around, it was still wonderful knowing he was alive and well, but it became much more painful that he was missing in my "real life" at every celebration. Christopher was no longer an "abstract being". He was a flesh and blood son, who was missing from my family. 2010 was another monumental year in my life though. On October 9th, I was finally able to see Christopher in person. To hug him, see him... It takes my breath away just remembering those first moments.
So, here's to 2011! For two years in a row now, something I thought would never happen did. Being reunited, and then meeting my son in person after 31 years. I am full of hope for this coming year. Will I meet Christopher's family ~ his children (my grandchildren!)? his wife? parents? I would be happy to just have another opportunity to spend another hour with Christopher ~ I feel like I am jinxing myself to even dream of anything more.
I hope that 2011 brings monumental
things into your lives too!
I hope that relationships grow, the lost are found,
and those rejected are finally embraced.